Faith / Usk

Usk

Piret Veski, Hingevalvurid, 2008

Paar päeva tagasi, istudes oma elu lõpusirgel oleva ema kõrval, mõtisklesin selle üle, mis aitab meil julgust leida. Mis annab meile jõudu ja julgust ületada oma hirmud ja astuda see viimane samm, mis viib meid uuele tasandile. Olgu see siis lahkumine töölt, lahkumine suhtest või siis see viimane ja kõige raskem – lahkumine siit ilmast.

Mis toetab meid, et lasta minna sellel, mille aeg on täis saanud, aga millest me veel kõvasti kinni hoiame – kas hirmude, harjumuste või millegi muu tõttu?

Kas on meil usku, et mingid nähtamatud käed toetavad meid ka siis, kui oma jõud on otsas?

Kas oleme üldse avatud abile?

Faith

I wondered about faith few days ago, while sitting by the bed of my mom who was in her transition process. I was curious what gives us courage to take this final step into unknown that would carry us onto new levels of being? I wondered if we have got faith that something would support us in this leap. What supports us to leave behind that does not serve us anymore - be it "worn out relationship", too comfortable job or home that does not fit us anymore? What prepares our Psyche to leave this lifetime?

Can I trust that those invisible hands would come and catch me?

Am I open to this kind of support?

Poet and wise man David Whyte says:

so that when you finally step out of the boat, …

we find 
everything holds

us, and confirms


our courage, and if you wanted


to drown, you could,


but you don’t,



because finally


after all the struggle


and all these years,


you don’t want to any more,


you’ve simply had enough


of drowning,


and you want to live and you


want to love and you will


walk across any territory


and any darkness,
however fluid and however


dangerous, to take the


one hand you know


belongs in yours.

From The Truelove